As of Tuesday it had been four days since I had last had an orgasm, which is surely a personal record. I wasn’t sure ahead of time how well I would handle being denied for this long. When searching for a mistress I had a kind of limit (at least starting out) of a week, at least to start out. But both my mistress and I have been very happy and pleased with how well I’ve been handling it.
So for Tuesday night/Wednesday morning we had planned on a proper play night, so mistress had some good plans for me. After asking if I wanted to know, and curiosity getting the better of me, she told me we’d be playing a Red Light/Green Light game, which I had previously mentioned as one of my favorite types of Jerk-Off Instruction (JOI) video and something I’d be interested in doing with her. So needless to say I was pretty excited for it :). My task for the day leading up to it was to touch myself (but not masturbate) at all available opportunities. After some tinkering around, we decided I would also taste my precum as much as possible. Of course, also keep in mind that the task for the previous day was no touching at all, so to finally be able to touch myself again was quite a relief. I’m starting to think that no touching at all is more of a challenge than simply being denied.
So that’s what I did when I could, especially before going to work. At work I didn’t have a lot of opportunities, both for being occupied and for sanitary reasons, but such as it is. When I got home my task allowed me to roll a die. 1-2: no touching. 3-4: I could masturbate but only by humping something like a pillow. 5-6: I could masturbate freely. Naturally, there would be no cumming. I ended up rolling a 6, which seems to be incredibly lucky considering my past rolls, but I’m not complaining. So I masturbated on and off throughout the evening, including a somewhat long session where I edged myself over and over. It’s quite a feeling that brings about a kind of high. I did decide, however, that I ought to be somewhat cooled off a bit before the game itself.
So mistress came online and played out our scene. She wanted me to be on edge as much as possible during this game (mistress really likes me on edge) so we warmed up a bit before starting to get me there. From there, when she said “green light” I was to be stroking non-stop. I think we agreed that, since the not stopping part of edging was a new thing we were trying, having to stop wouldn’t incur a punishment this time but this would not always be the case. The goal was to be in tune with my body. She didn’t care if I had to go super slow and just stroke with the tip of my finger (which I did end up having to do several times), she just wanted me in tune with myself so that I could be on edge without having to stop. I was a little apprehensive about this at first since my edges usually revolving around starting and stopping, but it turned out to be something that I could handle and is quite effective. Having done this a few times now, I’ve yet to have to just flat out stop altogether, although I will admit it’s not been without some close calls.
Anyway, that was the green light part. When she said “red light”, I was to stop and put my hands on my head. She had me focus on this so that I didn’t have to respond to her messages save for a few specific times, and she was left giving me red light/green light instructions, with plenty of teasing in between. She eventually had me begging her to let me cum. I had a few ideas coming into this day about whether or not she would let me cum, but during the day itself and especially during the game when the mind doesn’t completely work in a “sensible” way so to speak, I honestly didn’t know (which of course is exactly how mistress likes it.) I didn’t know if she would be merciful and reward me for being a good pet for her and getting this far, or if she would deny me. After all, we have a 5:1 mistress to pet orgasm ratio we are hoping to maintain, and I had gone this far, and as I’m finding out more and more, mistress *really* loves denying me. She describes herself as a service top, meaning she likes doing to people what they want done to them, such as orgasm control for me. But she clearly derives her own pleasure from it, and I love it :).
It just now occurs to me that I don’t have the slightest clue how long this went on for. I think we had aimed for 5 to 10 minutes, but a sense of time during these kinds of things is almost completely non-existent. But this went on for a bit before it was finally time for the moment of truth. So, was I allowed to cum?
No. No, I was not. I’m actually proud of my mistress for not giving in. Especially since this decision was apparently made a few days prior ;). We wound down the scene and I came away frustrated but happy. Mistress came away happy but turned on ;).
It is important to note, however, that this more than any other time showed me the importance of aftercare, which is a topic mistress and I had talked about before. Specifically, we discussed what she might need to do on her end to sooth me after, for example, doing some intense edging after two days of denial and then being told to “put it away.” It’s kind of funny how that at the time both excited me and scared me so much. And now here we just did that almost exact same thing except with four days of denial leading up to it. But I had a suspicion for what I would need in such a situation and I ended up being correct. It works best for me that after winding down the scene (let’s say roughly five minutes following stopping and being denied) that we kind of just chill out and talk about random stuff, which is something mistress and I do often anyway.
After the scene I was feeling rather vulnerable and emotional. I explained it to mistress like if you were to read a sad story or watch a sad video/movie, you would break down crying. I just don’t think being given commands and being directly submissive in that mindset would be very good for me. But mistress was wonderful and we chatted and just did whatever. After then after a while I was fine, so I think it worked out wonderfully :). So if you’re doing things like this, make sure you’re practicing good aftercare!
So that was that. I went into the next day going on my fifth day of no orgasms after a heavy session of edging and denial. Both me and my mistress are quite proud of this :).